I'm constantly wrestling with two different sides of myself, and they can both be clearly defined by my astrological sign. Now, I know not many people believe in horoscopes, and astrology isn't just about that. Its about using someone's sun sign to determine someone's traits and basic characteristics. I agree, sometimes people don't act like their sun sign--but for the most part, I've come to realize that's a big indicator. This comes from experience, my sun sign is Aquarius, and the signs in the elements air and fire) are ones that I'm supposed to get a long with, coincidentally these are usually the signs that i find, bring me the best friends. For instance, my best friend is the only person that i feel truly understands me--and her sign is libra, which is the best match for an Aquarius.
Otherwise, I have a lot of good friends that fall under the category of Libra, Sagittarius and gemini. My brother who I am pretty close to, is also a Leo. But enough of that! My point has to do with two warring sides of my personality. In aquarius, there are two planets that rule, which are Saturn and Uranus. (Uranus being the dominant sign) Saturn which rules Capricorn, is more a planet about structure, rules and becoming self disciplined. If you want someone to tell you your wrong, go find a capricorn, they're usually the ones who tell you the truth as they see it.
On the other hand there is Uranus, which is completely opposite. This planet is all about being unconventional, it enjoys resisting authority and marching to the beat of its own drum.
Can you see my problem a bit? I'm constantly having issues with wanting to be my own person, yet caring about what people think, wanting to make people happy. Yet, trying to make sure I stay independent and logical. One thing about me is that I don't have much regard to my emotions, i choose to disobey them and instead follow with my head.
I chose the title, "stand out, or stay in?" because standing out is all about being who I want to be, which means i'm not going to act the way others want me to, how society deems fit. I march to the beat of my own drum. Unfortunately, lately thats been difficult. Because sometimes, the way i look at life, isn't the way others do. So lately, i've felt the heat for my ways of looking at the world. Part of me doesn't care, if someone tells me I'm one thing, well then so be it. It doesn't have to effect me.
However, that mentality is slowly changing, because i keep finding that people look at me differently. I lose people with my lack of tact, my disregard for my own emotions, and my issues with morality.
So then i have an issue of needing to "stay in," but that's hard. Because as much as i want to be able to have my cake, and eat it too--its hard to find the balance. Its difficult staying true to my beliefs, while watching out for eggshells.
It doesn't help that I'm also stubborn, even when i know i should do the right thing--my resistance against authority kicks in, telling me, "why should you obey other people?" I'm trying to find the balance right now, but I guess I'm always going to have a battle with myself.
Hopefully I'll have a solution one of these days.
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Monday, December 20, 2010
A few words on a rainy day
My earlier post regarding Sarah Palin hasn't been finished, and there's a few good reasons for that--I'm somewhat bias to her, and in an effort to fully analyze her skills and faults, I need more time. That post may or may not come anytime soon, or i will just write it months before the next election.
I feel the need however, to write about some other issues that have plagued my mind these past few days.
First has to do with nonbelievers and Christmas, something you should know about me, is that I am not a christian, nor do i belong to any other religious affiliation. However, my family strongly believes in the divinity of Jesus, the bible and God. I grew up thinking that Jesus was the only truth, and that christianity was the only religion that was right. But in the past two or so years, i have had a drastic change in thought process.
Anyways, most of my family knows this about me, and my brother. Well, the other day my mother was talking to my grandma and she asked if my moms "older kids were celebrating christmas." My mother, was a bit taken aback, (thank goodness) and asked why my grandmother would say that. Her reply went something like this, "why would they not celebrate jesus and celebrate christmas."
It was a weird moment for me, first of all my first thought was, "guess I'm not getting gifts from nana this year." Secondly, I disliked the view people have that Christmas is strictly a christian holiday. Does anyone remember that december 25th isn't Jesus's real birthday? That the only reason we celebrate during the winter time is because of the pagans? Furthermore, at least in America, christmas is so commercialized. Unless your a believer, your not really going to remember that christmas is a holiday celebrating Jesus. Its become a time to celebrate the winter, a holiday were we give gifts, decorate a tree and tell our kids that Santa is going to bring gifts. Where is Jesus in all of that? Nowhere.
So, it really bugs me that people think of Christmas as a religious holiday, its not just for you guys! Non believers can celebrate too, we like getting presents, decorating trees and believing in a mythical man who comes down our chimney on christmas eve.
Well, thats the end of my rant. Have a Merry Christmas, happy holidays or Happy Hanukkah everyone.
I feel the need however, to write about some other issues that have plagued my mind these past few days.
First has to do with nonbelievers and Christmas, something you should know about me, is that I am not a christian, nor do i belong to any other religious affiliation. However, my family strongly believes in the divinity of Jesus, the bible and God. I grew up thinking that Jesus was the only truth, and that christianity was the only religion that was right. But in the past two or so years, i have had a drastic change in thought process.
Anyways, most of my family knows this about me, and my brother. Well, the other day my mother was talking to my grandma and she asked if my moms "older kids were celebrating christmas." My mother, was a bit taken aback, (thank goodness) and asked why my grandmother would say that. Her reply went something like this, "why would they not celebrate jesus and celebrate christmas."
It was a weird moment for me, first of all my first thought was, "guess I'm not getting gifts from nana this year." Secondly, I disliked the view people have that Christmas is strictly a christian holiday. Does anyone remember that december 25th isn't Jesus's real birthday? That the only reason we celebrate during the winter time is because of the pagans? Furthermore, at least in America, christmas is so commercialized. Unless your a believer, your not really going to remember that christmas is a holiday celebrating Jesus. Its become a time to celebrate the winter, a holiday were we give gifts, decorate a tree and tell our kids that Santa is going to bring gifts. Where is Jesus in all of that? Nowhere.
So, it really bugs me that people think of Christmas as a religious holiday, its not just for you guys! Non believers can celebrate too, we like getting presents, decorating trees and believing in a mythical man who comes down our chimney on christmas eve.
Well, thats the end of my rant. Have a Merry Christmas, happy holidays or Happy Hanukkah everyone.
Monday, November 29, 2010
What we didn't know about our government that we know now
I'm going to interrupt my posts about Palin to speak out about the U.S cables that were leaked onto wikileaks yesterday. In actuality, they were not the first and if the Obama Administration does not take serious action soon, they will not be the last.
A lot of sensitive information was released, various diplomats discussed leaders around the globe (in unflattering terms i might add) also and more importantly there were conversations with Arab leaders that urged the United States to stop Iran from developing nuclear weapons. There was also information about China, namely that their hackers which have been collecting and growing since 2002 were responsible for Google being hacked this past January.
While the release of these documents is a matter of National Security, and there will certainly be a lot of republicans condemning Obama's administration for not taking enough measures to prevent this--I feel as if we must look at this information and realize something very important. We don't understand that many of the things government does, has a reason.
Take Iran, for years people on the sidelines--the ordinary folks, have been crying to end the many wars America has been involved in. Several times during his campaign, Obama discussed his plan to bring home the troops once and for all. I remember when Obama took office in 2009, and his talk about ending the war was halted. If i remember correctly, (i may be wrong) he also discussed sending even more troops out into the fields. Many people were dismayed at this, as was I until i thought of something. We don't know everything, and there's probably some big secret for why were still involved in the war that the government won't tell us--and that Obama just found out, that changed his mind.
Looking at these documents tells us that there is a lot of pressure on our government to stop Iran's nuclear facilities. Its one out of many reasons for why were still fighting, and were not going to quit just yet. What's more, how many other documents are there that would give reason for why our government works the way it is?
We just don't know. But yet, in our naivete and fear we strike against the government, because they have lost our trust. So in the end, we create a problem that could wind up affecting them, in ways that harbor our safety.
Instead of looking at these leaks as another stab at government, we should instead look at them as a reminder that we do not know everything, and that the government does act in our best interest as best as it can. They're like the parent, that knows everything but wont tell us why its wrong to go out at night to that party--or does, but we the children are too stubborn to realize why.
--Kat Vengo
A lot of sensitive information was released, various diplomats discussed leaders around the globe (in unflattering terms i might add) also and more importantly there were conversations with Arab leaders that urged the United States to stop Iran from developing nuclear weapons. There was also information about China, namely that their hackers which have been collecting and growing since 2002 were responsible for Google being hacked this past January.
While the release of these documents is a matter of National Security, and there will certainly be a lot of republicans condemning Obama's administration for not taking enough measures to prevent this--I feel as if we must look at this information and realize something very important. We don't understand that many of the things government does, has a reason.
Take Iran, for years people on the sidelines--the ordinary folks, have been crying to end the many wars America has been involved in. Several times during his campaign, Obama discussed his plan to bring home the troops once and for all. I remember when Obama took office in 2009, and his talk about ending the war was halted. If i remember correctly, (i may be wrong) he also discussed sending even more troops out into the fields. Many people were dismayed at this, as was I until i thought of something. We don't know everything, and there's probably some big secret for why were still involved in the war that the government won't tell us--and that Obama just found out, that changed his mind.
Looking at these documents tells us that there is a lot of pressure on our government to stop Iran's nuclear facilities. Its one out of many reasons for why were still fighting, and were not going to quit just yet. What's more, how many other documents are there that would give reason for why our government works the way it is?
We just don't know. But yet, in our naivete and fear we strike against the government, because they have lost our trust. So in the end, we create a problem that could wind up affecting them, in ways that harbor our safety.
Instead of looking at these leaks as another stab at government, we should instead look at them as a reminder that we do not know everything, and that the government does act in our best interest as best as it can. They're like the parent, that knows everything but wont tell us why its wrong to go out at night to that party--or does, but we the children are too stubborn to realize why.
--Kat Vengo
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Sarah Palin: Why she is/isn't suited for President.
Were two years past the 2008 Presidential elections, which means in another two years we will be faced with a decision. To keep Obama as our President for the next four years, or elect a republican in. There are many republican names that have been circulating to run against each-other during the primaries, I've heard of a few such as Mitty Romney, Newt Gingrich, and Sarah Palin.
Many people love Sarah Palin, and I can see why. She's a beautiful woman with high energy, she has the enthusiasm of a ring leader, as many people have called her. As a prominent member of the Tea Party, the former governor of Alaska has rounded her "momma grizzlies," and inspired many people. In the news since the 2008 election, when McCain announced her as his VP, Palin has become a household name. But should Sarah Palin take the plunge, and run for President in the next 2012 election? Moreover, if Sarah Palin ran--would she be a suitable President?
First, lets discuss what a President's role in the government is, so that we may figure out what qualities he/she should embody.
Article 2 details some of the Presidents roles, he shall have command of the armed forces, with consent of 2/3 vote from the Senate the President can make treaties, appoint ambassadors and other public offices, and fill up vacancies. And as article two, section three writes "He shall from time to time give to the Congress Information of the State of the Union, and recommend to their Consideration such Measures as he shall judge necessary and expedient; he may, on extraordinary Occasions, convene both Houses, or either of them, and in Case of Disagreement between them, with Respect to the Time of Adjournment, he may adjourn them to such Time as he shall think proper; he shall receive Ambassadors and other public Ministers; he shall take Care that the Laws be faithfully executed, and shall Commission all the Officers of the United States."
So what will it take for someone to fulfill all of these duties? As well as some other duties that Presidents in recent years have come to accept, such as responsibility for the economy as recent Presidents have done in the past?
I believe our President should be well informed of the constitution, as well as other parts of government. As Commander in Chief and host of ambassadors, the president should be educated in matters of foreign policy and the military. He or she should also be able to know about those countries to which he shall be in communication, as well as knowing the history of our nation so that he may make decisions with hindsight.
So how do we use this information in deciding whether or not Palin will be suitable for the White House? Well, looks like we shall find out next time!
-Kat Vengo
Many people love Sarah Palin, and I can see why. She's a beautiful woman with high energy, she has the enthusiasm of a ring leader, as many people have called her. As a prominent member of the Tea Party, the former governor of Alaska has rounded her "momma grizzlies," and inspired many people. In the news since the 2008 election, when McCain announced her as his VP, Palin has become a household name. But should Sarah Palin take the plunge, and run for President in the next 2012 election? Moreover, if Sarah Palin ran--would she be a suitable President?
First, lets discuss what a President's role in the government is, so that we may figure out what qualities he/she should embody.
Article 2 details some of the Presidents roles, he shall have command of the armed forces, with consent of 2/3 vote from the Senate the President can make treaties, appoint ambassadors and other public offices, and fill up vacancies. And as article two, section three writes "He shall from time to time give to the Congress Information of the State of the Union, and recommend to their Consideration such Measures as he shall judge necessary and expedient; he may, on extraordinary Occasions, convene both Houses, or either of them, and in Case of Disagreement between them, with Respect to the Time of Adjournment, he may adjourn them to such Time as he shall think proper; he shall receive Ambassadors and other public Ministers; he shall take Care that the Laws be faithfully executed, and shall Commission all the Officers of the United States."
So what will it take for someone to fulfill all of these duties? As well as some other duties that Presidents in recent years have come to accept, such as responsibility for the economy as recent Presidents have done in the past?
I believe our President should be well informed of the constitution, as well as other parts of government. As Commander in Chief and host of ambassadors, the president should be educated in matters of foreign policy and the military. He or she should also be able to know about those countries to which he shall be in communication, as well as knowing the history of our nation so that he may make decisions with hindsight.
So how do we use this information in deciding whether or not Palin will be suitable for the White House? Well, looks like we shall find out next time!
-Kat Vengo
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Filled with dread
I feel as empty as the sea shells that collect on the sea shore. Washed onto the dry sand i am left helpless, wondering who i am, where i came from, and what to do. Maybe it was the book i read today, but I'm filled with dread--as if some impending doom is going to happen, and i need to be mentally prepared.
I hate being emotional . . . and that's what i am at the moment, not pleasant for someone who hates her emotions. So to cope, I inhale the scent of melting candles, tidy up my room, and dance around my room while listening to Christina Aguilera's bobblehead. I've also joined a new website called herfuture.com which looks promising, and i'm hoping to get advice for starting my businesses. Which i really need to do.
Guess I'll finish that room of mine, it looks like the cat dragged in some beast that ate my belongings, then vomited it back up.
I hate being emotional . . . and that's what i am at the moment, not pleasant for someone who hates her emotions. So to cope, I inhale the scent of melting candles, tidy up my room, and dance around my room while listening to Christina Aguilera's bobblehead. I've also joined a new website called herfuture.com which looks promising, and i'm hoping to get advice for starting my businesses. Which i really need to do.
Guess I'll finish that room of mine, it looks like the cat dragged in some beast that ate my belongings, then vomited it back up.
Friday, November 5, 2010
The Social Network
What's the best lesson I'm going to take out of the Social Network movie?
I don't think I can pick just one, because there are MANY. For one . . . don't trust your friends. Sad I know, but you can't trust them, your best friends especially, and I've already learned THAT lesson the hard way. Secondly, if you have a great idea--run with it, invest in it, and watch it grow into a billion dollar company.
Its an amazing movie really, for someone who believes her mission in life is to become a creative entrepreneur--and you know, there aren't many or really any females who are entrepreneurs. I mean sure you have some that have stock in Wal-Mart, there's a few other woman who have had great ideas. But really, our top CEO's who started their companies aren't woman, they're men. I want to be the first woman who rises to the top, and i want it so very badly. I think I want it more than I've ever wanted anything else, a guy for one . . . and its more profitable for that matter.
I have so many ideas bouncing around my head, and a few of them i feel, "are the next big thing." There isn't much stopping me, okay maybe the fact that the most basic code i know is HTML and some java and CSS. Besides that--the only thing is me, i'm lazy and I procrastinate too much, but thats besides the point. Or is it?
Oh well.
I have my ideas and some coding basics, plus I can learn. I think this can be a piece of cake if I actually START.
I don't think I can pick just one, because there are MANY. For one . . . don't trust your friends. Sad I know, but you can't trust them, your best friends especially, and I've already learned THAT lesson the hard way. Secondly, if you have a great idea--run with it, invest in it, and watch it grow into a billion dollar company.
Its an amazing movie really, for someone who believes her mission in life is to become a creative entrepreneur--and you know, there aren't many or really any females who are entrepreneurs. I mean sure you have some that have stock in Wal-Mart, there's a few other woman who have had great ideas. But really, our top CEO's who started their companies aren't woman, they're men. I want to be the first woman who rises to the top, and i want it so very badly. I think I want it more than I've ever wanted anything else, a guy for one . . . and its more profitable for that matter.
I have so many ideas bouncing around my head, and a few of them i feel, "are the next big thing." There isn't much stopping me, okay maybe the fact that the most basic code i know is HTML and some java and CSS. Besides that--the only thing is me, i'm lazy and I procrastinate too much, but thats besides the point. Or is it?
Oh well.
I have my ideas and some coding basics, plus I can learn. I think this can be a piece of cake if I actually START.
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Day 2: No facebook
Day 1 of no facebook was a huge tremendous SUCCESS! There were yes, many times i wanted to just log on, but i controlled myself, wanting to loosen my grip on the technological world. So i did other things yesterday, I ended up going to the photoshoot with my brother, and guess what? The boss of the photographer, LOVED me! So she had him take photos of me too, which was really neat. So i did that, and then I watched the Princess and the Frog for the first time. After i went to my room and got a text from two of my friends, asking if i wanted to hang out. Which was fun, we went to Five Guys, and Wal-Mart--where i bought a coloring book and puzzle! Two things to do if i get bored.
But i still have plenty to do today, like working for my dad (hopefully) and also singing lessons around 1:20. With my schedule occupied again, i should have no trouble ignoring Facebook for another day. Tomorrow i'm going to end up getting on for a little bit, i'm meeting someone Saturday so i need to give him my address, i'll check everything and then log off and do chores. Sounds good eh?
In other news, something I regrettbly use as a teenager is Limewire . . . but as of today, limewire has been court ordered to not distribute files anymore. *GASP* I was really surprised when this morning i went on, and discovered that limewire was killed. Its pretty sad, don't know what to do. I'm not a real big music buyer. I like diversity in music, and its expensive to buy a lot of the new stuff. I need to get rich.
Anyways, check out the article here---http://www.dailymail.co.uk/sciencetech/article-1324487/LimeWire-shut-Victory-record-industry-U-S-court-closes-file-sharing-site.html
But i still have plenty to do today, like working for my dad (hopefully) and also singing lessons around 1:20. With my schedule occupied again, i should have no trouble ignoring Facebook for another day. Tomorrow i'm going to end up getting on for a little bit, i'm meeting someone Saturday so i need to give him my address, i'll check everything and then log off and do chores. Sounds good eh?
In other news, something I regrettbly use as a teenager is Limewire . . . but as of today, limewire has been court ordered to not distribute files anymore. *GASP* I was really surprised when this morning i went on, and discovered that limewire was killed. Its pretty sad, don't know what to do. I'm not a real big music buyer. I like diversity in music, and its expensive to buy a lot of the new stuff. I need to get rich.
Anyways, check out the article here---http://www.dailymail.co.uk/sciencetech/article-1324487/LimeWire-shut-Victory-record-industry-U-S-court-closes-file-sharing-site.html
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
No Facebook: Day 1
I'm starting to feel the withdraws already, the "oh this would be a great status post," and the "I wonder what everyones up to?" Don't you just hate being addicted to something?
I need to be careful, or I'm going to sign on without thinking about it. Funny how i did that in my dream last night. So instead i need to focus on other things today, for one my brother is going out around 3 to Old Town for a photoshoot by Vizio. I'm going with him, mostly so i can get lucky and have someone take my photo and pay me $100. I can dream can't I? So this involves trying to figure out what a good urban edgy look is. I've kind of got an idea, but we'll see how it plays out. I don't have many patterns and colors in my wardrobe.
Other than that, i have house episodes being recorded all day. Can you say I just died and went to Heaven? Then there's finishing my book, working on dads paperwork so i can get paid . . . I should clean, eat and also practice driving if possible. With all that, who needs facebook? I need to keep telling myself this in order to get away from it.
Currently resisting the urge to log on, I think i should put House on or something.
Yeah, sounds good. Maybe bring a notepad? Write . . . day dream, read my book . . .Okay! I have a plan.
I need to be careful, or I'm going to sign on without thinking about it. Funny how i did that in my dream last night. So instead i need to focus on other things today, for one my brother is going out around 3 to Old Town for a photoshoot by Vizio. I'm going with him, mostly so i can get lucky and have someone take my photo and pay me $100. I can dream can't I? So this involves trying to figure out what a good urban edgy look is. I've kind of got an idea, but we'll see how it plays out. I don't have many patterns and colors in my wardrobe.
Other than that, i have house episodes being recorded all day. Can you say I just died and went to Heaven? Then there's finishing my book, working on dads paperwork so i can get paid . . . I should clean, eat and also practice driving if possible. With all that, who needs facebook? I need to keep telling myself this in order to get away from it.
Currently resisting the urge to log on, I think i should put House on or something.
Yeah, sounds good. Maybe bring a notepad? Write . . . day dream, read my book . . .Okay! I have a plan.
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Facebook: Deactivate or try to ignore?
Facebook is one of the worst addictions in the world! To think of all the people that sit idle on facebook, logged on picking their noses and waiting for something interesting to happen. Does anything interesting ever occur? Not really, maybe you get a notification or two, or five or what not. Still, its such a waste of time--and as the days wane on, i realize this and hate my self more. I hate being addicted to things, its like a drug . . . I'm already addicted to coffee, why add something else!?
So I'm going to abstain as hard as I can, hopefully blogging will help me. I'll think of other things to do as well, i have to sort out papers for my dad, thats one thing. Maybe i should try writing a novel, or figuring out how to design my room . . . or looking for a job. All sorts of stuff to do besides logging in and out, right?
Right. This will be easy as pie, as easy as tying my shoes...or baby sitting kids. The last one sounds about right, pulling out hair is bound to happen every few hours.
So I'm going to abstain as hard as I can, hopefully blogging will help me. I'll think of other things to do as well, i have to sort out papers for my dad, thats one thing. Maybe i should try writing a novel, or figuring out how to design my room . . . or looking for a job. All sorts of stuff to do besides logging in and out, right?
Right. This will be easy as pie, as easy as tying my shoes...or baby sitting kids. The last one sounds about right, pulling out hair is bound to happen every few hours.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Beauty isn't about looks, but about what's inside.
I recently had a guy who kept insulting me, he told me that i wasn't as attractive as I thought--yet i thought i was better than every guy who wanted me, and yet i liked an ugly stupid guy. He also told me i had no personality and i was a gray person, and when he said this it hurt. Was it true? I guess it hurts because that's always an insecurity of mine, but not the looks--the personality. Sometimes I fear that my personality is bad, because my friends aren't around or because I know that guys are only talking to me, to get in my pants. And that's another thing, this guy (we'll call him Mr. Meany) kept saying i was unattractive, even when he admitted that guys were commenting on my pictures telling me I'm hot.
But that's not why i wrote this, one of the things that angered me was his comment about how i thought every guy around me, was beneath me, and yet i picked an ugly stupid guy to love. Seems a bit ironic, don't you think? If i was really as conceited and bad as he thought, why did i like a guy who was probably more beneath me?
My reason for not liking a lot of guys is simple, and it has nothing to do with looks but more about what i like on the inside. There's been good looking guys who've liked me, and guys who weren't that have liked me--and i've rejected most of them. Its not because of what's on the outside, but its because i don't like their insides. Mr. Meany mentioned somebody I liked, and the reason i liked this guy had nothing to do with his looks, he wasn't the biggest looker . . . but he had personality, and a mind that was highly attractive.
Does that really make a girl conceited? Is it bad that I reject guys because of reasons only i know? Or my heart? I wish i could have told Mr. Meany this, that he's wrong. That the reason i didn't like all the other guys, wasn't because i felt over them--but because they just weren't who I'm looking for. I'm not looking to go around having boyfriend after boyfriend, i want something real. I want a guy to be proud of, and i think a little bit of that comes from liking somebody already. Somebody that meant a lot to me, and because of that--i want it again. But i want it to be real, and somebody who really is special. But maybe not special to someone else, but special to me.
I found an article about this, "Why stunning girls fall for ugly guys" and it hits a good point, and a point that guys and girls should realize when it comes to looks. The right person will fall for your good points, for your personality...and don't feel bad if someone doesn't, i believe that there's someone out there for all of us. And if your upset because nobody likes you, then look at yourself, is there something people don't like about you, that you can change? I don't think that's bad, because everybody has bad points to them, bad qualities--even I do, and unless I'm really lucky i should change those if i want someone to really be into me.
Anyways, my point is that beauty isn't about how you look on the outside--but how you are inside.
But that's not why i wrote this, one of the things that angered me was his comment about how i thought every guy around me, was beneath me, and yet i picked an ugly stupid guy to love. Seems a bit ironic, don't you think? If i was really as conceited and bad as he thought, why did i like a guy who was probably more beneath me?
My reason for not liking a lot of guys is simple, and it has nothing to do with looks but more about what i like on the inside. There's been good looking guys who've liked me, and guys who weren't that have liked me--and i've rejected most of them. Its not because of what's on the outside, but its because i don't like their insides. Mr. Meany mentioned somebody I liked, and the reason i liked this guy had nothing to do with his looks, he wasn't the biggest looker . . . but he had personality, and a mind that was highly attractive.
Does that really make a girl conceited? Is it bad that I reject guys because of reasons only i know? Or my heart? I wish i could have told Mr. Meany this, that he's wrong. That the reason i didn't like all the other guys, wasn't because i felt over them--but because they just weren't who I'm looking for. I'm not looking to go around having boyfriend after boyfriend, i want something real. I want a guy to be proud of, and i think a little bit of that comes from liking somebody already. Somebody that meant a lot to me, and because of that--i want it again. But i want it to be real, and somebody who really is special. But maybe not special to someone else, but special to me.
I found an article about this, "Why stunning girls fall for ugly guys" and it hits a good point, and a point that guys and girls should realize when it comes to looks. The right person will fall for your good points, for your personality...and don't feel bad if someone doesn't, i believe that there's someone out there for all of us. And if your upset because nobody likes you, then look at yourself, is there something people don't like about you, that you can change? I don't think that's bad, because everybody has bad points to them, bad qualities--even I do, and unless I'm really lucky i should change those if i want someone to really be into me.
Anyways, my point is that beauty isn't about how you look on the outside--but how you are inside.
Saturday, October 2, 2010
My rode to stardom
I'd love to start off this post by saying, everybody wants to become a star. The truth is, not everybody wants to glamour up and live in a world sealed off by bodyguards and paparazzi clamoring up your walls for a picture. So i wont say that.
There are however, others--such as myself and brother, who want to get into that world of pop culture, where hollywood intersects with wealth and fame. I think i've always desired a life that wasn't normal--going to school, college, getting a job and raise a family. My dreams have always been large, i remember when i was only six years old i already had the dream of becoming a young entrepreneur. Its funny how it took me 12 years to go back and remember that dream. So here I am, an eighteen 5'2" girl, with her sights set on climbing the ladder that is social status.
"My rode to stardom" starts off with several big career dreams.
Actress
Singer
Writer
Business woman
Politician
My life will be complete when i accomplish every single one of those, the business one includes several big companies i might add, but the others--a single goal of hitting it big. Where to start i wonder?
I've dabbled in each one, i have ideas and plans. I've acted in several plays, even becoming the lead. I have taken writing classes for two years, and I try and read up on political issues while becoming involved in the process that is voting. Now i'm working on something else, I'm taking singing classes with a recording producer. Its really wonderful actually, and my voice--as described by Maddy, a girl who takes care of my sister--is getting better. But all the pieces aren't in place, i still feel as if i'm failing. Which is scary for me, because i'm afraid of failing . . . its my only big fear. Realizing ten years from now, that i am nowhere close to my dreams, and they will never come true. I hope this wont be me. So this is my blog, I think i'll come to share those fears, those goals that i have, and the things i accomplish.
I guess this is the beginning.
xoxo
Kat Vengo
There are however, others--such as myself and brother, who want to get into that world of pop culture, where hollywood intersects with wealth and fame. I think i've always desired a life that wasn't normal--going to school, college, getting a job and raise a family. My dreams have always been large, i remember when i was only six years old i already had the dream of becoming a young entrepreneur. Its funny how it took me 12 years to go back and remember that dream. So here I am, an eighteen 5'2" girl, with her sights set on climbing the ladder that is social status.
"My rode to stardom" starts off with several big career dreams.
Actress
Singer
Writer
Business woman
Politician
My life will be complete when i accomplish every single one of those, the business one includes several big companies i might add, but the others--a single goal of hitting it big. Where to start i wonder?
I've dabbled in each one, i have ideas and plans. I've acted in several plays, even becoming the lead. I have taken writing classes for two years, and I try and read up on political issues while becoming involved in the process that is voting. Now i'm working on something else, I'm taking singing classes with a recording producer. Its really wonderful actually, and my voice--as described by Maddy, a girl who takes care of my sister--is getting better. But all the pieces aren't in place, i still feel as if i'm failing. Which is scary for me, because i'm afraid of failing . . . its my only big fear. Realizing ten years from now, that i am nowhere close to my dreams, and they will never come true. I hope this wont be me. So this is my blog, I think i'll come to share those fears, those goals that i have, and the things i accomplish.
I guess this is the beginning.
xoxo
Kat Vengo
Thursday, September 16, 2010
What defines a religion?
I was reading an article, here--http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/us_rel_piercing_church about a girl who got suspended for a nose piercing. Sure you say, of course a school would violate something like that. The funny thing, or interesting is that she says it violates her first amendment right of freedom of religion. She goes to a church of body modification, and apparently its her religion to change her body. I'm totally fine with that, except the fact that its a religion. Which makes me question what a religion is, is it a defined term? Can The Church of Body Modification be a true religion such as muslim, islam and christianity?
Just a thought, what do you think?
Just a thought, what do you think?
Friday, August 20, 2010
Who is your Mr. Perfect? Do we all have the same one?
I was reading a post on yahoo titled, "How to have sex with the right guy." Which gave in to an interesting point, the ladies want a man who isn't overly talkative during sex, but also someone who is fully in tuned with who he is, and who you are. This author discussed three different men, the selfish lover, the overly sensitive, and then Mr. In between.
Which got me thinking, can't we transfer this Mr. Perfect to be more then just a sexual partner? For me, i always seem to find either totally selfish guys, or really sensitive types. But all i want is the guy who can balance both, I want a man who has sexy confidence, enough to know when he should kiss me. But yet, a guy who can bring me flowers or chocolates when I'm on my period and play it off like its nothing, hey guys--its sexy when your confident and sensitive at the same time!
But isn't this what every women wants? The man we don't have to tell anything to, because he just knows already by reading our signals. A guy who knows where he wants to go for dinner, but asks us anyways, or knows us enough to know. It sounds like perfection, the man who can balance confidence and sensitivity.
What do you think? Selfish? Sensitive? Or the man who can pull off both?
Which got me thinking, can't we transfer this Mr. Perfect to be more then just a sexual partner? For me, i always seem to find either totally selfish guys, or really sensitive types. But all i want is the guy who can balance both, I want a man who has sexy confidence, enough to know when he should kiss me. But yet, a guy who can bring me flowers or chocolates when I'm on my period and play it off like its nothing, hey guys--its sexy when your confident and sensitive at the same time!
But isn't this what every women wants? The man we don't have to tell anything to, because he just knows already by reading our signals. A guy who knows where he wants to go for dinner, but asks us anyways, or knows us enough to know. It sounds like perfection, the man who can balance confidence and sensitivity.
What do you think? Selfish? Sensitive? Or the man who can pull off both?
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Are books going out of style?
Twice today i've read separate posts that make me wonder about the future of the hand held book, the first one was a big shocker--Barnes and Noble is for sale. Apparently because of the popularity of Amazon, the kindle and most recently the Ipad, paperback books are going out of style. I remember when my favorite pastime--and still is, was going to the library and picking up a well-worn book and sitting in a comfy chair to read it. Just yesterday I was at an old bookstore called the Paperback shack, most of their books are used and cheap, when i walked inside the smell overwhelmed. The smell of old books, ripe for picking. Will the next generation never be able to smell that heavenly smell?
An article on Time's website, mentioned a list of ten items or things the next generation will never be able to see. While reading the list, I agreed with several of them--such as walk mens, and tan M&M's. But to my surprise, "real" books were also on that list. In a world brimming with technological advancement, will we really see such things as books, maybe even CD's going out of style? I would like to hope not, but the evidence--nooks, ipads and the recent decision of B&N challenges my thinking.
Can we the people do something about this? And further more, do we want to? Who knows, perhaps if publishers stopped printing books we could save trees and most importantly money. Our books could become cheaper! But the experience of reading a book, having it sit on a book shelf, or going to the library are certain experiences I'm afraid of losing.
Another thing beckons my attention, what would happen if everything was online? We would lose the bookstores to go to when we want to read a books inside cover, the novelty of being able to meet people with similar interests would be lost. The world would continue its downward fall of losing personal touch with reality and people.
All of these things scare me, i adore change--realize its importance in the world, but with this. The change seems like a disaster, or just a disaster waiting to happen.
An article on Time's website, mentioned a list of ten items or things the next generation will never be able to see. While reading the list, I agreed with several of them--such as walk mens, and tan M&M's. But to my surprise, "real" books were also on that list. In a world brimming with technological advancement, will we really see such things as books, maybe even CD's going out of style? I would like to hope not, but the evidence--nooks, ipads and the recent decision of B&N challenges my thinking.
Can we the people do something about this? And further more, do we want to? Who knows, perhaps if publishers stopped printing books we could save trees and most importantly money. Our books could become cheaper! But the experience of reading a book, having it sit on a book shelf, or going to the library are certain experiences I'm afraid of losing.
Another thing beckons my attention, what would happen if everything was online? We would lose the bookstores to go to when we want to read a books inside cover, the novelty of being able to meet people with similar interests would be lost. The world would continue its downward fall of losing personal touch with reality and people.
All of these things scare me, i adore change--realize its importance in the world, but with this. The change seems like a disaster, or just a disaster waiting to happen.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
So confused.
I don't know what i want anymore! (in regards to dating and the opposite sex.)
Part of the time i sit and say, "I want a boyfriend." Then when someone pops up in my life, i get excited . . . and then it fizzles, I can't like anybody the regular way, i'm just waiting for that moment to happen again. Have you ever had "that" moment?
Maybe you don't know what "that" moment is, its a moment in time, when everything changes. When the world seems to tip over, and volcanoes explode as the earth shakes under your feet. I'm waiting for the moment my heart chooses. I want one moment of pure bliss, to change into a rocky tunnel. I want to like someone randomly, were within a moment my heart changes places and I'm left confused, wondering where it went--when suddenly i realize someone else held it in their hands.
I've had that happen twice, and maybe that's why this whole dating and liking guy business annoys me. I don't want to gradually like anyone, it seems fake and un-real. All i care with those guys is kissing them, but when its real . . . i know its different. I'm not drawn by lust, something else tugs at me.
Maybe I'm destined to walk the roads alone. Maybe, just maybe, i'm not meant to be held at this point in my life. Maybe just maybe, i should forget guys and work on my life goals.
So much easier said then done. -sighs-
-Kat
Part of the time i sit and say, "I want a boyfriend." Then when someone pops up in my life, i get excited . . . and then it fizzles, I can't like anybody the regular way, i'm just waiting for that moment to happen again. Have you ever had "that" moment?
Maybe you don't know what "that" moment is, its a moment in time, when everything changes. When the world seems to tip over, and volcanoes explode as the earth shakes under your feet. I'm waiting for the moment my heart chooses. I want one moment of pure bliss, to change into a rocky tunnel. I want to like someone randomly, were within a moment my heart changes places and I'm left confused, wondering where it went--when suddenly i realize someone else held it in their hands.
I've had that happen twice, and maybe that's why this whole dating and liking guy business annoys me. I don't want to gradually like anyone, it seems fake and un-real. All i care with those guys is kissing them, but when its real . . . i know its different. I'm not drawn by lust, something else tugs at me.
Maybe I'm destined to walk the roads alone. Maybe, just maybe, i'm not meant to be held at this point in my life. Maybe just maybe, i should forget guys and work on my life goals.
So much easier said then done. -sighs-
-Kat
Friday, August 13, 2010
The Hardest Jobs in America
I was pulling weeds for a bit today, very short--i was out in the sun for barely 12 minutes, within two minutes i had already begun getting tired. Lame I know? So I sat on my bed when i was done and began thinking, "wow, that was a lot of work! How do people do that all day?" That's when it hit me, the worse jobs out there--the ones were labors tole in the sun, tilling weeds, or working on construction sites are the jobs that people get paid minimum wage. How is that fair? Why should someone who is working in the sun for 6-12 hours get paid less then the guy sitting in an air-conditioned room, typing numbers on his keyboard?
The jobs that nobody wants to do, but the ones that are the most important, are the same ones that we don't give enough funds to. I think about the Wal-mart worker, who doesn't have insurance or much benefits and gets paid a low amount, compared to their CEO who does what? The same amount of work for way more money! Its so completely ridiculous!
I'm not saying the CEO should get paid less . . . he (or she) does a lot of work, they run a company that takes a lot of time and energy. So i'm not complaining, especially because i want to run my own company one day. But when i think of all the work people do in jobs like gardening, construction, even fire fighters and cops or teachers--i feel bad that their amazing accomplishments aren't recognized enough. So here's to anyone out there with a low paid job, but who does a lot of work. Thank you! And to anyone out there who sees this, next time you see someone working in the sun, go and tell them you thank them for their hard work. I'm sure anyone would appreciate a kind smile, and a thank you.
The jobs that nobody wants to do, but the ones that are the most important, are the same ones that we don't give enough funds to. I think about the Wal-mart worker, who doesn't have insurance or much benefits and gets paid a low amount, compared to their CEO who does what? The same amount of work for way more money! Its so completely ridiculous!
I'm not saying the CEO should get paid less . . . he (or she) does a lot of work, they run a company that takes a lot of time and energy. So i'm not complaining, especially because i want to run my own company one day. But when i think of all the work people do in jobs like gardening, construction, even fire fighters and cops or teachers--i feel bad that their amazing accomplishments aren't recognized enough. So here's to anyone out there with a low paid job, but who does a lot of work. Thank you! And to anyone out there who sees this, next time you see someone working in the sun, go and tell them you thank them for their hard work. I'm sure anyone would appreciate a kind smile, and a thank you.
Thursday, August 12, 2010
There is no such thing as a good/bad person.
I was thinking about something last night, there is no such thing as a "bad person." It came around when i was thinking about the different people i hang out with, and how some people are more alienated then others for being, "bastards" or "bitches." Its interesting for me, because i realized last night that unless someone dislikes me first i don't disown people easily. There was one time when I so called, "hated" someone. But that didn't last for long, because it wasn't really hate. I can't hate or dislike anybody.
A good friend of mine once told me that the thing he liked best about me, was my ability to see the good in people. Since then, i think he has recounted that as being naive and innocent, but the dong rings true for me. Even though, its not that simple in my case. In my book, everybody is okay (maybe good) until proven otherwise. It used to be a naive assumption of mine that everybody was for sure good until guilty, but now I'm starting to realize that there is also no such thing as good people. However, I'm not going to write you off the first time i meet you. Is it true? I sometimes ask myself, in a sense it is. But there is more to it then i realize most of the time, because of some events that have happened in my own life i've become more empathetic towards people. I've realized that there is always a reason for why people do what they do, yes it could be wrong. But i don't hold it against them, because in the end we are all people who just want to be loved.
Which is what brings me to the reason for my post, there is no such thing as a bad person because there is always a reason for why they do what they do. Except, okay granted you might find someone who goes against the grain and commits evil sins for no reason at all. (But this is highly unlikely) Does this excuse their behavior? Absolutely not, but does that mean you should ignore someone and be rude to them for a mistake? No, i don't think you should do that. I'm forgiving by nature, but i also do not condone things people do, (hint i don't condone WHAT they DO.)
There are extreme and mild cases, and if you have one let me know what they are and i'll tell you what i would do.
The reason the person isn't bad however is because they aren't acting on self, they are acting on what another person did to them. If someone like say the Joker, (I'm a big fan of the batman series :) and yes i know he's fiction) likes to kill people, then he could be someone against the norm. But actually i just thought about the fact that he had several events that made him who he was, he got dumped in a vat of toxic waste or in the movie he was ridiculed. There is always a reason for every action humans take, its never just for the fun of it.
People do bad things, doesn't make them a bad person. And in retrospect, people aren't good. Which is a shift in thinking i need to work on, because everybody makes mistakes--everybody will say something bad about another, think something bad or even do something terrible. Everybody in life has one person in mind, themselves. Some people just hide it better then others. And its not terrible, as long as that person recognizes that there are other people involved in running this world.
I don't know if this article conveyed all that i wish to say, so i'll probably come back to reiterate my thoughts.
Questions?? Comments?
Ta ta for now!
Kat
A good friend of mine once told me that the thing he liked best about me, was my ability to see the good in people. Since then, i think he has recounted that as being naive and innocent, but the dong rings true for me. Even though, its not that simple in my case. In my book, everybody is okay (maybe good) until proven otherwise. It used to be a naive assumption of mine that everybody was for sure good until guilty, but now I'm starting to realize that there is also no such thing as good people. However, I'm not going to write you off the first time i meet you. Is it true? I sometimes ask myself, in a sense it is. But there is more to it then i realize most of the time, because of some events that have happened in my own life i've become more empathetic towards people. I've realized that there is always a reason for why people do what they do, yes it could be wrong. But i don't hold it against them, because in the end we are all people who just want to be loved.
Which is what brings me to the reason for my post, there is no such thing as a bad person because there is always a reason for why they do what they do. Except, okay granted you might find someone who goes against the grain and commits evil sins for no reason at all. (But this is highly unlikely) Does this excuse their behavior? Absolutely not, but does that mean you should ignore someone and be rude to them for a mistake? No, i don't think you should do that. I'm forgiving by nature, but i also do not condone things people do, (hint i don't condone WHAT they DO.)
There are extreme and mild cases, and if you have one let me know what they are and i'll tell you what i would do.
The reason the person isn't bad however is because they aren't acting on self, they are acting on what another person did to them. If someone like say the Joker, (I'm a big fan of the batman series :) and yes i know he's fiction) likes to kill people, then he could be someone against the norm. But actually i just thought about the fact that he had several events that made him who he was, he got dumped in a vat of toxic waste or in the movie he was ridiculed. There is always a reason for every action humans take, its never just for the fun of it.
People do bad things, doesn't make them a bad person. And in retrospect, people aren't good. Which is a shift in thinking i need to work on, because everybody makes mistakes--everybody will say something bad about another, think something bad or even do something terrible. Everybody in life has one person in mind, themselves. Some people just hide it better then others. And its not terrible, as long as that person recognizes that there are other people involved in running this world.
I don't know if this article conveyed all that i wish to say, so i'll probably come back to reiterate my thoughts.
Questions?? Comments?
Ta ta for now!
Kat
Friday, August 6, 2010
My theories on December 21st 2012
I have discovered a secret so infinitively powerful, and amazing that it blows my mind away. My entire life is centered upon this one moment, this truth I’ve always known—but never quite gotten. Ever since I was a child I dreamt about a period in life that I would be apart of, I always thought it was the end of the world. Nay, it is not the end but the beginning. It even makes sense with the bible; “the end” was really the beginning of a new era, the end of the old way of thinking. I’m still not sure how the bible, or revelations fits into this new reality, but I feel like it does in a small or large way.
My dreams have always centered upon the earth looking differently, I’ve seen volcanoes and earthquakes and signs in the sky. Granted, these signs were beautiful . . . the sky rolling up, or planets being seen from earth while the sun was out. I’m not sure whether or not these will be seen, but it may just be metaphoric. My scariest dream always involved death, and me being blamed for everyone. Could this be something else? Could death be metaphoric for radical change? Why was I the last one standing, why was I blamed?
In the past year a new age came to my attention, the Age of Aquarius. It’s an age of new beginnings of thinking. The past age of Pisces that dominated our world the past years when Christ began is changing, we will no longer think in boxed ways. Instead, uncommon ways of thinking will take place. I’ve long waited this period of refinement, and have always been told it had already begun, but I’ve never thought that. I’ve always felt it coming, like a raging storm it would sweep across the minds of earth. Change is dawning, coming over the horizon.
Now, there are other factors besides these two that make the truth even more magnificent, the next factor is the end of the Mayan calendar occurring on December 21, 2012.
The Mayan calendar runs through different cycles of 280 years, 365 and most importantly it goes through the Long Run calendar, each one is about 1 bakkun. We have passed 13, and will be entering the “end,” of the current one on Dec. 22. Where the next one we enter will be number 14. I’m still looking for what the significance of 14 is.
The Mayans however do not fear the ending of their calendar, they have always celebrated the time when it ends, because it is a rare occurrence. Everybody figures this is doomsday (I wonder what doomsday really means?) but I know the truth, its not.
Next comes the alignment of Uranus and Pluto, which occurs every 46 or so years and lasts for around 5. I stumbled upon this not on accident but with the thought already in mind, I was on a website for astrology and decided to look up the planets of each sign. Aquarius being my sign was an almost instant check, the planet you will guess is yes, Uranus. When I then read about the planet and how it is not always around, but appears every so often my mind began churning. Would the next time Uranus enter our atmosphere be in 2012?
Which brings us to the properties of Uranus, being the ruler of Aquarius it is the planet of oddity, dealing with rebellion and a new way of thinking. Doesn’t this sound like the Age of Aquarius? Uranus/Pluto come together again every 46 years, the last time these two danced was during the 1960’s, and do you remember that time? It’s my favorite period of history, because the world experienced a great change. The Civil rights movement began and gave the African American’s their freedoms, Woodstock and the music and culture of that generation dominated, and rebellion was in the air. This was the year of political change; we saw a President assassinated and a new war begin. All these changes occurred because of the Uranus/Pluto alignment, every time these two get together the world receives a dose of shock. The funny thing is that in the past year I have discussed with some people, namely a teacher that I thought this period of history would repeat itself. I was already seeing changes, the gay right’s movement and the United States receiving a new young President.
And the most shocking thing is that the next alignment begins in 2011, starts officially sometime around fall/winter 2012 and ends in the year 2015. Now, another thing I checked at this was the date of how long the Age of Pisces is supposed to last. Because I wondered if each age occurred with the Mayan calendar, unfortunately it does not but I did find that the website I visited mentioned that the Age of Aquarius would coincide with the end of the Mayan Calendar. What a shock I thought, my suspicions were being validated by another source! What’s more is that once I clicked on the link labeled 2012 AD it mentioned possible things that might occur. At the top mentioned a change in human DNA, much like the Indigo Children. My eyes stared at that name, sending chills through my bones.
Recently, a friend of mine mentioned Indigo Children in his blog. The name was familiar, having heard it once during sophomore year by a friend and my mother. I felt the pull to research these children and found out that I was one myself, my friend even said that it was a highly possible assumption, saying he figured out I was one the last time we met. Delving into research I saw that Indigo’s were children with psychic abilities, old souls brought to earth to bring forth change. They are the leaders of this new age, the ones who know what is coming, and are preparing to use their gifts and talents.
Which ends most of the factors in my research, now what’s the end result? On December 21, 2012 when the Mayan calendar ends the world will not end, rather the Age of Pisces will seize to exist, in its place the Age of Aquarius will occur, thanks to the alignment of Uranus/Pluto. In this time, a new world conscious will arise. People’s ways of thinking will change, and we will see the earth taking the next logical step toward evolution. Helping this transition come the old souls, the Indigo children whose ways of thinking are already different. They will help bring the world to peace and harmony.
My dreams have always centered upon the earth looking differently, I’ve seen volcanoes and earthquakes and signs in the sky. Granted, these signs were beautiful . . . the sky rolling up, or planets being seen from earth while the sun was out. I’m not sure whether or not these will be seen, but it may just be metaphoric. My scariest dream always involved death, and me being blamed for everyone. Could this be something else? Could death be metaphoric for radical change? Why was I the last one standing, why was I blamed?
In the past year a new age came to my attention, the Age of Aquarius. It’s an age of new beginnings of thinking. The past age of Pisces that dominated our world the past years when Christ began is changing, we will no longer think in boxed ways. Instead, uncommon ways of thinking will take place. I’ve long waited this period of refinement, and have always been told it had already begun, but I’ve never thought that. I’ve always felt it coming, like a raging storm it would sweep across the minds of earth. Change is dawning, coming over the horizon.
Now, there are other factors besides these two that make the truth even more magnificent, the next factor is the end of the Mayan calendar occurring on December 21, 2012.
The Mayan calendar runs through different cycles of 280 years, 365 and most importantly it goes through the Long Run calendar, each one is about 1 bakkun. We have passed 13, and will be entering the “end,” of the current one on Dec. 22. Where the next one we enter will be number 14. I’m still looking for what the significance of 14 is.
The Mayans however do not fear the ending of their calendar, they have always celebrated the time when it ends, because it is a rare occurrence. Everybody figures this is doomsday (I wonder what doomsday really means?) but I know the truth, its not.
Next comes the alignment of Uranus and Pluto, which occurs every 46 or so years and lasts for around 5. I stumbled upon this not on accident but with the thought already in mind, I was on a website for astrology and decided to look up the planets of each sign. Aquarius being my sign was an almost instant check, the planet you will guess is yes, Uranus. When I then read about the planet and how it is not always around, but appears every so often my mind began churning. Would the next time Uranus enter our atmosphere be in 2012?
Which brings us to the properties of Uranus, being the ruler of Aquarius it is the planet of oddity, dealing with rebellion and a new way of thinking. Doesn’t this sound like the Age of Aquarius? Uranus/Pluto come together again every 46 years, the last time these two danced was during the 1960’s, and do you remember that time? It’s my favorite period of history, because the world experienced a great change. The Civil rights movement began and gave the African American’s their freedoms, Woodstock and the music and culture of that generation dominated, and rebellion was in the air. This was the year of political change; we saw a President assassinated and a new war begin. All these changes occurred because of the Uranus/Pluto alignment, every time these two get together the world receives a dose of shock. The funny thing is that in the past year I have discussed with some people, namely a teacher that I thought this period of history would repeat itself. I was already seeing changes, the gay right’s movement and the United States receiving a new young President.
And the most shocking thing is that the next alignment begins in 2011, starts officially sometime around fall/winter 2012 and ends in the year 2015. Now, another thing I checked at this was the date of how long the Age of Pisces is supposed to last. Because I wondered if each age occurred with the Mayan calendar, unfortunately it does not but I did find that the website I visited mentioned that the Age of Aquarius would coincide with the end of the Mayan Calendar. What a shock I thought, my suspicions were being validated by another source! What’s more is that once I clicked on the link labeled 2012 AD it mentioned possible things that might occur. At the top mentioned a change in human DNA, much like the Indigo Children. My eyes stared at that name, sending chills through my bones.
Recently, a friend of mine mentioned Indigo Children in his blog. The name was familiar, having heard it once during sophomore year by a friend and my mother. I felt the pull to research these children and found out that I was one myself, my friend even said that it was a highly possible assumption, saying he figured out I was one the last time we met. Delving into research I saw that Indigo’s were children with psychic abilities, old souls brought to earth to bring forth change. They are the leaders of this new age, the ones who know what is coming, and are preparing to use their gifts and talents.
Which ends most of the factors in my research, now what’s the end result? On December 21, 2012 when the Mayan calendar ends the world will not end, rather the Age of Pisces will seize to exist, in its place the Age of Aquarius will occur, thanks to the alignment of Uranus/Pluto. In this time, a new world conscious will arise. People’s ways of thinking will change, and we will see the earth taking the next logical step toward evolution. Helping this transition come the old souls, the Indigo children whose ways of thinking are already different. They will help bring the world to peace and harmony.
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Indigo Children
You've heard the name, or you haven't. Maybe your a kid like me, you've lived your entire life feeling "different." An odd ball, i know for me i've never quite fit in. The first time i ever did was in my sophomore year of high school, i found a group of kids that were just a bit weird and out there. One boy in particular was the first out of the kids i met, he was strange and scary but interesting. I remember right off the bat getting interested, not in a like way . . . but I was drawn, something about the energy, pulled me closer to him. I didn't know it of course, i was too naive and young to realize what was happening when four months later it hit me. I had a crush. But even though it sounds simplistic, just a girl who had a crush . . . it felt like much more.
I changed because i knew him, and part of me hates that. I hate realizing i am who i am because someone influenced me. But after talking to my mom and realizing things about myself, i realize i've always been me. Except a shell of what i was always supposed to be, my mother says i used to resist authority when i was a kid.I used to hear voices and think they were God talking to me, i once saw a person at the door in the corner of my eye . . . when it vanished a second later.
Going back to feeling different, i've never gotten a long with most kids my age. I was always talking and conversing with adults with ease, but when it came to my generation--there was a distance, they never liked me, and all my life i've always wondered why. Finally i think i found the answer, i've heard the term Indigo children before but recently i heard it again and decided to research it. What i found was startling, children who were old souls that were called here for a greater purpose, a purpose in almost "saving the world." Children who resist authority and feel disconnected from others, children who have special gifts that enable them to perceive what will happen next, or understand when someone is going through and help them. Do you ever experience this? If so check this website to see if you're an Indigo. Indigo Children
I recently found out I'm an indigo, which suddenly makes perfect sense. All of my weird dreams and crazy ideas, the way in which i always had a hard time making friends--and number one, the fact that certain people i meet feel like old friends. Has that ever happened to you? I've had numerous times were i've felt connected to people, in the past few years its more refined. I will meet someone and instantly have this attraction, not for physical but mental stimulation. And i realize now that these are other Indigo children, because Indigo's associate with other Indigo's, and because of their gifts can probably sense others like them easily.
So that's a bit about these kids in a nutshell, I'm really into spiritual things and auras, and nature and Indigo's and the end times, astrology, everything is kind of intertwined. So i invite you now to join me in this adventure of learning about these cool things! You ready? See you later!
-Kat
I changed because i knew him, and part of me hates that. I hate realizing i am who i am because someone influenced me. But after talking to my mom and realizing things about myself, i realize i've always been me. Except a shell of what i was always supposed to be, my mother says i used to resist authority when i was a kid.I used to hear voices and think they were God talking to me, i once saw a person at the door in the corner of my eye . . . when it vanished a second later.
Going back to feeling different, i've never gotten a long with most kids my age. I was always talking and conversing with adults with ease, but when it came to my generation--there was a distance, they never liked me, and all my life i've always wondered why. Finally i think i found the answer, i've heard the term Indigo children before but recently i heard it again and decided to research it. What i found was startling, children who were old souls that were called here for a greater purpose, a purpose in almost "saving the world." Children who resist authority and feel disconnected from others, children who have special gifts that enable them to perceive what will happen next, or understand when someone is going through and help them. Do you ever experience this? If so check this website to see if you're an Indigo. Indigo Children
I recently found out I'm an indigo, which suddenly makes perfect sense. All of my weird dreams and crazy ideas, the way in which i always had a hard time making friends--and number one, the fact that certain people i meet feel like old friends. Has that ever happened to you? I've had numerous times were i've felt connected to people, in the past few years its more refined. I will meet someone and instantly have this attraction, not for physical but mental stimulation. And i realize now that these are other Indigo children, because Indigo's associate with other Indigo's, and because of their gifts can probably sense others like them easily.
So that's a bit about these kids in a nutshell, I'm really into spiritual things and auras, and nature and Indigo's and the end times, astrology, everything is kind of intertwined. So i invite you now to join me in this adventure of learning about these cool things! You ready? See you later!
-Kat
Thursday, July 22, 2010
1st day at Comic Con
And the first day of Comic Con begins! I'm still at the place i'm staying, waiting for the rest of my gang to finish getting ready so we can head out. Its going to be a terrific day, with me live blogging (or a few minute late blogging) about the panels, the sights and the funtastic times i'm having at the Con.
On the Agenda for the day, first my good friend Kayla and I are going to get our badges then see about whether or not we have to volunteer for the day. (We might not, but if so we reaaalyyy want the morning) Then, were going to walk the exhibit hall for an hour, then try and get into Salt. But if we can't get in, its all good because were seeing the premiere tonight, here in San Diego! Too bad we can't go to the one Angelina Jolie will be at, since she's here at the Con. (We really want to see her!) Afterwards, were going to see about either walking the exhbit hall or working on the new Dexter scavenger hunt. Its really awesome, and in order to play go to Dextergameon.com to get the details. Then later today were going to be in ballroom 20 for the Psych, anti-hero and dexter panel! I'm sooo excited, since i love both shows. Even though, its unfortunate that I'm only on the second season of Dexter (spoiler alert)
After 7:30 when the Con ends we might come back and then head out again for the Salt premiere, sounds like a fun day alright? I better pack up on the monsters and coffee. :)
On the Agenda for the day, first my good friend Kayla and I are going to get our badges then see about whether or not we have to volunteer for the day. (We might not, but if so we reaaalyyy want the morning) Then, were going to walk the exhibit hall for an hour, then try and get into Salt. But if we can't get in, its all good because were seeing the premiere tonight, here in San Diego! Too bad we can't go to the one Angelina Jolie will be at, since she's here at the Con. (We really want to see her!) Afterwards, were going to see about either walking the exhbit hall or working on the new Dexter scavenger hunt. Its really awesome, and in order to play go to Dextergameon.com to get the details. Then later today were going to be in ballroom 20 for the Psych, anti-hero and dexter panel! I'm sooo excited, since i love both shows. Even though, its unfortunate that I'm only on the second season of Dexter (spoiler alert)
After 7:30 when the Con ends we might come back and then head out again for the Salt premiere, sounds like a fun day alright? I better pack up on the monsters and coffee. :)
Friday, July 16, 2010
Inception the Midnight Premiere
None of you know, but i have to say that I am a big fan of midnight premieres. I love going to the ones for the big movies, i've seen The Dark Knight, X men, Iron man 2 (to name a few) and just tonight saw Inception. Phenomenal movie i must say! I sat through a few trailers of some movies that looked really good, and some that seemed stupid, while others were just downright frightening (Exorcist and devil) However, it was hilarious because they showed the preview for Devil tonight which is a movie produced by M. night Shyamalan. I sort of feel bad for this guy, because the very second his name showed up for the preview--everybody in the theater started booing. I figure it has to do with Avatar: The last airbender, but i may be wrong.
Gong back to Inception however, it was a really good movie. My friends and I could not stop talking about it. It was one of those movies that made you think, the plot had to do with reality, what is real and what is not? As well as it looked at dreams from a different view point and made me personally think about how dreams are so totally crazy and original, unlike our conscious minds that are more manipulated from factors we see every day.
One great thing i liked was that even though the movie was over two hours, the action packed scenes along with the surprising effects seemed to speed up the movie and leave you at the edge of your seat. Never knowing what would happen next.
I recommend everyone seeing this movie! Leave a comment about what you thought, and oh by the way, anybody upset with the ending? I know i was!
Gong back to Inception however, it was a really good movie. My friends and I could not stop talking about it. It was one of those movies that made you think, the plot had to do with reality, what is real and what is not? As well as it looked at dreams from a different view point and made me personally think about how dreams are so totally crazy and original, unlike our conscious minds that are more manipulated from factors we see every day.
One great thing i liked was that even though the movie was over two hours, the action packed scenes along with the surprising effects seemed to speed up the movie and leave you at the edge of your seat. Never knowing what would happen next.
I recommend everyone seeing this movie! Leave a comment about what you thought, and oh by the way, anybody upset with the ending? I know i was!
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Getting excited for Comic Con 2010!
My all time favorite event for the year is only 11 days away! Comic Con comes back for their 71st year at the San Diego convention center on July 22nd (21st for those lucky enough to go to preview night) I'm going to be volunteering this year and spending all four days flitting to my favorite panels and then back down to go to the venders and get free stuff. Comic Con seems like a quieter event this year, with twilight no where to be found and less big name movies coming to Hall H.
The only event that will probably spark many fans interest is the Warner Bros. preview of three of their block buster movies in Hall H on saturday. Which movies? Green Lantern, Sucker Punch, and Harry Potter of course! While i've never heard of sucker punch I'm going to be sure to attend this panel!
Other panels i'm looking forward to are the ones for my favorite tv show's . . . most notably Psych on thursday and Smallville on Sunday. Being a long time Smallville fan i have waited to see this panel in the past two years i've attended the con. But this is the first time that I'm going all four days, and also its their last time bringing the cast and characters to San Diego. Also its Tom Welling's second time going, which for me is a big plus because that boy is just too hot!
Whose going to the Con? And which panels are you excited to see? Sad that twilight wont be coming this year? Sign off in the comments!
<3
Kat Vengo
The only event that will probably spark many fans interest is the Warner Bros. preview of three of their block buster movies in Hall H on saturday. Which movies? Green Lantern, Sucker Punch, and Harry Potter of course! While i've never heard of sucker punch I'm going to be sure to attend this panel!
Other panels i'm looking forward to are the ones for my favorite tv show's . . . most notably Psych on thursday and Smallville on Sunday. Being a long time Smallville fan i have waited to see this panel in the past two years i've attended the con. But this is the first time that I'm going all four days, and also its their last time bringing the cast and characters to San Diego. Also its Tom Welling's second time going, which for me is a big plus because that boy is just too hot!
Whose going to the Con? And which panels are you excited to see? Sad that twilight wont be coming this year? Sign off in the comments!
<3
Kat Vengo
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Trying to stay positive
I need to remember that there are more people cheering on the sidelines, then the amount of people booing on the field. I'm trying to stay positive, using that as my crutch. My mantra whenever i keep thinking about my own dreams, or the people who think i will fail. You see, yesterday i got my first job--a job that i can really work hard at, and a job that could prove good for experience in the field of business. Unfortunately, its a difficult job based on the customer. Its not commission, because i get paid a base fee for every appointment, but in retrospect appointments are hard to come by when they are 45 minutes and in the persons home. And also when i have to make them with friends and family first.
I'm going to be working for Vector in case your interested, after sitting through the interview yesterday i thought it was really cool. They have an amazing company, and i'm glad to work for them. However, the thoughts of being told that everybody works for them, and that its not a good paying job--and plus with my dreams of failing, my confidence is starting to waiver. But alas, i remember the good friends on the sidelines, the ones saying i can do it.
So for now i say, I can do it. I can do it, I can do it.
Anybody living in Temecula want to buy kitchen knives? Send me an email, horseloverktv@gmail.com
I'm going to be working for Vector in case your interested, after sitting through the interview yesterday i thought it was really cool. They have an amazing company, and i'm glad to work for them. However, the thoughts of being told that everybody works for them, and that its not a good paying job--and plus with my dreams of failing, my confidence is starting to waiver. But alas, i remember the good friends on the sidelines, the ones saying i can do it.
So for now i say, I can do it. I can do it, I can do it.
Anybody living in Temecula want to buy kitchen knives? Send me an email, horseloverktv@gmail.com
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
"The World is against me." Or Maybe I'm against myself?
He's on your mind all the time, you can't let him go. That one boy who makes you smile, you've liked him for awhile but now its time to let go. Have you ever liked somebody so much that it hurt? And then one day you woke up, and realized you must stop liking this person, and then you try your hardest to stop? I have, and its a constant battle to stop . . . but along this road i see signs that say, "this is why you like him!" Is that you?
Today this occurred in fact, one of my favorite pastimes is looking up my horoscope, sometimes the one on myspace is true, and other times they have reminders for me to live by. I also get these, and tarot cards sent to my email, well upon checking my email i got one about love--"Someone who agrees with you is obviously bright, but someone who challenges you might turn out be downright fascinating -- and infuriating, and hot. Start an argument with someone new and see what happens." Unfortunately for me, this is one of those reminders, and seeing this turns my brain around to think of the person i fell hardest for. Attempt at forgetting: Failure.
A quick thought entered my mind at this, why is the world so against me that it has to put obstacles in my path to stop me from forgetting? Then I realized something, it isn't the world at all . . . but myself, whose the one interpreting this email that way? Me, and whose the person who can't really stop thinking of him? Me. I need to realize that its not the world pitted against me, it didn't do anything, nature is unbiased and random, but I'm in control of what I do. And in order to shake my feelings, i need to realize and utilize that I'm in control of everything around me.
So next time you think the world is against you, stop and ask yourself, "Maybe I'm against myself?"
Today this occurred in fact, one of my favorite pastimes is looking up my horoscope, sometimes the one on myspace is true, and other times they have reminders for me to live by. I also get these, and tarot cards sent to my email, well upon checking my email i got one about love--"Someone who agrees with you is obviously bright, but someone who challenges you might turn out be downright fascinating -- and infuriating, and hot. Start an argument with someone new and see what happens." Unfortunately for me, this is one of those reminders, and seeing this turns my brain around to think of the person i fell hardest for. Attempt at forgetting: Failure.
A quick thought entered my mind at this, why is the world so against me that it has to put obstacles in my path to stop me from forgetting? Then I realized something, it isn't the world at all . . . but myself, whose the one interpreting this email that way? Me, and whose the person who can't really stop thinking of him? Me. I need to realize that its not the world pitted against me, it didn't do anything, nature is unbiased and random, but I'm in control of what I do. And in order to shake my feelings, i need to realize and utilize that I'm in control of everything around me.
So next time you think the world is against you, stop and ask yourself, "Maybe I'm against myself?"
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Obsession (for men) from Calvin Klein has some interesting fans.
It draws in Cats. Jaguars that is.
Scientists from Guatemala used the scent Obsession (for men) from Calvin Klein, to track jaguars by luring them in front of cameras. Interesting. Wonder what's so special about that scent? I want to smell it now.
The article:
http://news.yahoo.com/s/nm/20100610/od_nm/us_jaguars_calvinklein
Scientists from Guatemala used the scent Obsession (for men) from Calvin Klein, to track jaguars by luring them in front of cameras. Interesting. Wonder what's so special about that scent? I want to smell it now.
The article:
http://news.yahoo.com/s/nm/20100610/od_nm/us_jaguars_calvinklein
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