I recently had a guy who kept insulting me, he told me that i wasn't as attractive as I thought--yet i thought i was better than every guy who wanted me, and yet i liked an ugly stupid guy. He also told me i had no personality and i was a gray person, and when he said this it hurt. Was it true? I guess it hurts because that's always an insecurity of mine, but not the looks--the personality. Sometimes I fear that my personality is bad, because my friends aren't around or because I know that guys are only talking to me, to get in my pants. And that's another thing, this guy (we'll call him Mr. Meany) kept saying i was unattractive, even when he admitted that guys were commenting on my pictures telling me I'm hot.
But that's not why i wrote this, one of the things that angered me was his comment about how i thought every guy around me, was beneath me, and yet i picked an ugly stupid guy to love. Seems a bit ironic, don't you think? If i was really as conceited and bad as he thought, why did i like a guy who was probably more beneath me?
My reason for not liking a lot of guys is simple, and it has nothing to do with looks but more about what i like on the inside. There's been good looking guys who've liked me, and guys who weren't that have liked me--and i've rejected most of them. Its not because of what's on the outside, but its because i don't like their insides. Mr. Meany mentioned somebody I liked, and the reason i liked this guy had nothing to do with his looks, he wasn't the biggest looker . . . but he had personality, and a mind that was highly attractive.
Does that really make a girl conceited? Is it bad that I reject guys because of reasons only i know? Or my heart? I wish i could have told Mr. Meany this, that he's wrong. That the reason i didn't like all the other guys, wasn't because i felt over them--but because they just weren't who I'm looking for. I'm not looking to go around having boyfriend after boyfriend, i want something real. I want a guy to be proud of, and i think a little bit of that comes from liking somebody already. Somebody that meant a lot to me, and because of that--i want it again. But i want it to be real, and somebody who really is special. But maybe not special to someone else, but special to me.
I found an article about this, "Why stunning girls fall for ugly guys" and it hits a good point, and a point that guys and girls should realize when it comes to looks. The right person will fall for your good points, for your personality...and don't feel bad if someone doesn't, i believe that there's someone out there for all of us. And if your upset because nobody likes you, then look at yourself, is there something people don't like about you, that you can change? I don't think that's bad, because everybody has bad points to them, bad qualities--even I do, and unless I'm really lucky i should change those if i want someone to really be into me.
Anyways, my point is that beauty isn't about how you look on the outside--but how you are inside.
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