He's on your mind all the time, you can't let him go. That one boy who makes you smile, you've liked him for awhile but now its time to let go. Have you ever liked somebody so much that it hurt? And then one day you woke up, and realized you must stop liking this person, and then you try your hardest to stop? I have, and its a constant battle to stop . . . but along this road i see signs that say, "this is why you like him!" Is that you?
Today this occurred in fact, one of my favorite pastimes is looking up my horoscope, sometimes the one on myspace is true, and other times they have reminders for me to live by. I also get these, and tarot cards sent to my email, well upon checking my email i got one about love--"Someone who agrees with you is obviously bright, but someone who challenges you might turn out be downright fascinating -- and infuriating, and hot. Start an argument with someone new and see what happens." Unfortunately for me, this is one of those reminders, and seeing this turns my brain around to think of the person i fell hardest for. Attempt at forgetting: Failure.
A quick thought entered my mind at this, why is the world so against me that it has to put obstacles in my path to stop me from forgetting? Then I realized something, it isn't the world at all . . . but myself, whose the one interpreting this email that way? Me, and whose the person who can't really stop thinking of him? Me. I need to realize that its not the world pitted against me, it didn't do anything, nature is unbiased and random, but I'm in control of what I do. And in order to shake my feelings, i need to realize and utilize that I'm in control of everything around me.
So next time you think the world is against you, stop and ask yourself, "Maybe I'm against myself?"
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