Who is your Mr. Perfect? Do we all have the same one?

I was reading a post on yahoo titled, "How to have sex with the right guy." Which gave in to an interesting point, the ladies want a man who isn't overly talkative during sex, but also someone who is fully in tuned with who he is, and who you are. This author discussed three different men, the selfish lover, the overly sensitive, and then Mr. In between.

Which got me thinking, can't we transfer this Mr. Perfect to be more then just a sexual partner? For me, i always seem to find either totally selfish guys, or really sensitive types. But all i want is the guy who can balance both, I want a man who has sexy confidence, enough to know when he should kiss me. But yet, a guy who can bring me flowers or chocolates when I'm on my period and play it off like its nothing, hey guys--its sexy when your confident and sensitive at the same time!

But isn't this what every women wants? The man we don't have to tell anything to, because he just knows already by reading our signals. A guy who knows where he wants to go for dinner, but asks us anyways, or knows us enough to know. It sounds like perfection, the man who can balance confidence and sensitivity.

What do you think? Selfish? Sensitive? Or the man who can pull off both?

Are books going out of style?

Twice today i've read separate posts that make me wonder about the future of the hand held book, the first one was a big shocker--Barnes and Noble is for sale. Apparently because of the popularity of Amazon, the kindle and most recently the Ipad, paperback books are going out of style. I remember when my favorite pastime--and still is, was going to the library and picking up a well-worn book and sitting in a comfy chair to read it. Just yesterday I was at an old bookstore called the Paperback shack, most of their books are used and cheap, when i walked inside the smell overwhelmed. The smell of old books, ripe for picking. Will the next generation never be able to smell that heavenly smell?

An article on Time's website, mentioned a list of ten items or things the next generation will never be able to see. While reading the list, I agreed with several of them--such as walk mens, and tan M&M's. But to my surprise, "real" books were also on that list. In a world brimming with technological advancement, will we really see such things as books, maybe even CD's going out of style? I would like to hope not, but the evidence--nooks, ipads and the recent decision of B&N challenges my thinking.

Can we the people do something about this? And further more, do we want to? Who knows, perhaps if publishers stopped printing books we could save trees and most importantly money. Our books could become cheaper! But the experience of reading a book, having it sit on a book shelf, or going to the library are certain experiences I'm afraid of losing.

Another thing beckons my attention, what would happen if everything was online? We would lose the bookstores to go to when we want to read a books inside cover, the novelty of being able to meet people with similar interests would be lost. The world would continue its downward fall of losing personal touch with reality and people.

All of these things scare me, i adore change--realize its importance in the world, but with this. The change seems like a disaster, or just a disaster waiting to happen.

So confused.

I don't know what i want anymore! (in regards to dating and the opposite sex.)

Part of the time i sit and say, "I want a boyfriend." Then when someone pops up in my life, i get excited . . . and then it fizzles, I can't like anybody the regular way, i'm just waiting for that moment to happen again. Have you ever had "that" moment?

Maybe you don't know what "that" moment is, its a moment in time, when everything changes. When the world seems to tip over, and volcanoes explode as the earth shakes under your feet. I'm waiting for the moment my heart chooses. I want one moment of pure bliss, to change into a rocky tunnel. I want to like someone randomly, were within a moment my heart changes places and I'm left confused, wondering where it went--when suddenly i realize someone else held it in their hands.

I've had that happen twice, and maybe that's why this whole dating and liking guy business annoys me. I don't want to gradually like anyone, it seems fake and un-real. All i care with those guys is kissing them, but when its real . . . i know its different. I'm not drawn by lust, something else tugs at me.

Maybe I'm destined to walk the roads alone. Maybe, just maybe, i'm not meant to be held at this point in my life. Maybe just maybe, i should forget guys and work on my life goals.

So much easier said then done. -sighs-

-Kat

The Hardest Jobs in America

I was pulling weeds for a bit today, very short--i was out in the sun for barely 12 minutes, within two minutes i had already begun getting tired. Lame I know? So I sat on my bed when i was done and began thinking, "wow, that was a lot of work! How do people do that all day?" That's when it hit me, the worse jobs out there--the ones were labors tole in the sun, tilling weeds, or working on construction sites are the jobs that people get paid minimum wage. How is that fair? Why should someone who is working in the sun for 6-12 hours get paid less then the guy sitting in an air-conditioned room, typing numbers on his keyboard?

The jobs that nobody wants to do, but the ones that are the most important, are the same ones that we don't give enough funds to. I think about the Wal-mart worker, who doesn't have insurance or much benefits and gets paid a low amount, compared to their CEO who does what? The same amount of work for way more money! Its so completely ridiculous!

I'm not saying the CEO should get paid less . . . he (or she) does a lot of work, they run a company that takes a lot of time and energy. So i'm not complaining, especially because i want to run my own company one day. But when i think of all the work people do in jobs like gardening, construction, even fire fighters and cops or teachers--i feel bad that their amazing accomplishments aren't recognized enough. So here's to anyone out there with a low paid job, but who does a lot of work. Thank you! And to anyone out there who sees this, next time you see someone working in the sun, go and tell them you thank them for their hard work. I'm sure anyone would appreciate a kind smile, and a thank you.

There is no such thing as a good/bad person.

I was thinking about something last night, there is no such thing as a "bad person." It came around when i was thinking about the different people i hang out with, and how some people are more alienated then others for being, "bastards" or "bitches." Its interesting for me, because i realized last night that unless someone dislikes me first i don't disown people easily. There was one time when I so called, "hated" someone. But that didn't last for long, because it wasn't really hate. I can't hate or dislike anybody.

A good friend of mine once told me that the thing he liked best about me, was my ability to see the good in people. Since then, i think he has recounted that as being naive and innocent, but the dong rings true for me. Even though, its not that simple in my case. In my book, everybody is okay (maybe good) until proven otherwise. It used to be a naive assumption of mine that everybody was for sure good until guilty, but now I'm starting to realize that there is also no such thing as good people. However, I'm not going to write you off the first time i meet you. Is it true? I sometimes ask myself, in a sense it is. But there is more to it then i realize most of the time, because of some events that have happened in my own life i've become more empathetic towards people. I've realized that there is always a reason for why people do what they do, yes it could be wrong. But i don't hold it against them, because in the end we are all people who just want to be loved.

Which is what brings me to the reason for my post, there is no such thing as a bad person because there is always a reason for why they do what they do. Except, okay granted you might find someone who goes against the grain and commits evil sins for no reason at all. (But this is highly unlikely) Does this excuse their behavior? Absolutely not, but does that mean you should ignore someone and be rude to them for a mistake? No, i don't think you should do that. I'm forgiving by nature, but i also do not condone things people do, (hint i don't condone WHAT they DO.)

There are extreme and mild cases, and if you have one let me know what they are and i'll tell you what i would do.

The reason the person isn't bad however is because they aren't acting on self, they are acting on what another person did to them. If someone like say the Joker, (I'm a big fan of the batman series :) and yes i know he's fiction) likes to kill people, then he could be someone against the norm. But actually i just thought about the fact that he had several events that made him who he was, he got dumped in a vat of toxic waste or in the movie he was ridiculed. There is always a reason for every action humans take, its never just for the fun of it.

People do bad things, doesn't make them a bad person. And in retrospect, people aren't good. Which is a shift in thinking i need to work on, because everybody makes mistakes--everybody will say something bad about another, think something bad or even do something terrible. Everybody in life has one person in mind, themselves. Some people just hide it better then others. And its not terrible, as long as that person recognizes that there are other people involved in running this world.

I don't know if this article conveyed all that i wish to say, so i'll probably come back to reiterate my thoughts.
Questions?? Comments?

Ta ta for now!
Kat

My theories on December 21st 2012

I have discovered a secret so infinitively powerful, and amazing that it blows my mind away. My entire life is centered upon this one moment, this truth I’ve always known—but never quite gotten. Ever since I was a child I dreamt about a period in life that I would be apart of, I always thought it was the end of the world. Nay, it is not the end but the beginning. It even makes sense with the bible; “the end” was really the beginning of a new era, the end of the old way of thinking. I’m still not sure how the bible, or revelations fits into this new reality, but I feel like it does in a small or large way.

My dreams have always centered upon the earth looking differently, I’ve seen volcanoes and earthquakes and signs in the sky. Granted, these signs were beautiful . . . the sky rolling up, or planets being seen from earth while the sun was out. I’m not sure whether or not these will be seen, but it may just be metaphoric. My scariest dream always involved death, and me being blamed for everyone. Could this be something else? Could death be metaphoric for radical change? Why was I the last one standing, why was I blamed?

In the past year a new age came to my attention, the Age of Aquarius. It’s an age of new beginnings of thinking. The past age of Pisces that dominated our world the past years when Christ began is changing, we will no longer think in boxed ways. Instead, uncommon ways of thinking will take place. I’ve long waited this period of refinement, and have always been told it had already begun, but I’ve never thought that. I’ve always felt it coming, like a raging storm it would sweep across the minds of earth. Change is dawning, coming over the horizon.

Now, there are other factors besides these two that make the truth even more magnificent, the next factor is the end of the Mayan calendar occurring on December 21, 2012.

The Mayan calendar runs through different cycles of 280 years, 365 and most importantly it goes through the Long Run calendar, each one is about 1 bakkun. We have passed 13, and will be entering the “end,” of the current one on Dec. 22. Where the next one we enter will be number 14. I’m still looking for what the significance of 14 is.

The Mayans however do not fear the ending of their calendar, they have always celebrated the time when it ends, because it is a rare occurrence. Everybody figures this is doomsday (I wonder what doomsday really means?) but I know the truth, its not.

Next comes the alignment of Uranus and Pluto, which occurs every 46 or so years and lasts for around 5. I stumbled upon this not on accident but with the thought already in mind, I was on a website for astrology and decided to look up the planets of each sign. Aquarius being my sign was an almost instant check, the planet you will guess is yes, Uranus. When I then read about the planet and how it is not always around, but appears every so often my mind began churning. Would the next time Uranus enter our atmosphere be in 2012?

Which brings us to the properties of Uranus, being the ruler of Aquarius it is the planet of oddity, dealing with rebellion and a new way of thinking. Doesn’t this sound like the Age of Aquarius? Uranus/Pluto come together again every 46 years, the last time these two danced was during the 1960’s, and do you remember that time? It’s my favorite period of history, because the world experienced a great change. The Civil rights movement began and gave the African American’s their freedoms, Woodstock and the music and culture of that generation dominated, and rebellion was in the air. This was the year of political change; we saw a President assassinated and a new war begin. All these changes occurred because of the Uranus/Pluto alignment, every time these two get together the world receives a dose of shock. The funny thing is that in the past year I have discussed with some people, namely a teacher that I thought this period of history would repeat itself. I was already seeing changes, the gay right’s movement and the United States receiving a new young President.

And the most shocking thing is that the next alignment begins in 2011, starts officially sometime around fall/winter 2012 and ends in the year 2015. Now, another thing I checked at this was the date of how long the Age of Pisces is supposed to last. Because I wondered if each age occurred with the Mayan calendar, unfortunately it does not but I did find that the website I visited mentioned that the Age of Aquarius would coincide with the end of the Mayan Calendar. What a shock I thought, my suspicions were being validated by another source! What’s more is that once I clicked on the link labeled 2012 AD it mentioned possible things that might occur. At the top mentioned a change in human DNA, much like the Indigo Children. My eyes stared at that name, sending chills through my bones.

Recently, a friend of mine mentioned Indigo Children in his blog. The name was familiar, having heard it once during sophomore year by a friend and my mother. I felt the pull to research these children and found out that I was one myself, my friend even said that it was a highly possible assumption, saying he figured out I was one the last time we met. Delving into research I saw that Indigo’s were children with psychic abilities, old souls brought to earth to bring forth change. They are the leaders of this new age, the ones who know what is coming, and are preparing to use their gifts and talents.

Which ends most of the factors in my research, now what’s the end result? On December 21, 2012 when the Mayan calendar ends the world will not end, rather the Age of Pisces will seize to exist, in its place the Age of Aquarius will occur, thanks to the alignment of Uranus/Pluto. In this time, a new world conscious will arise. People’s ways of thinking will change, and we will see the earth taking the next logical step toward evolution. Helping this transition come the old souls, the Indigo children whose ways of thinking are already different. They will help bring the world to peace and harmony.

Indigo Children

You've heard the name, or you haven't. Maybe your a kid like me, you've lived your entire life feeling "different." An odd ball, i know for me i've never quite fit in. The first time i ever did was in my sophomore year of high school, i found a group of kids that were just a bit weird and out there. One boy in particular was the first out of the kids i met, he was strange and scary but interesting. I remember right off the bat getting interested, not in a like way . . . but I was drawn, something about the energy, pulled me closer to him. I didn't know it of course, i was too naive and young to realize what was happening when four months later it hit me. I had a crush. But even though it sounds simplistic, just a girl who had a crush . . . it felt like much more.

I changed because i knew him, and part of me hates that. I hate realizing i am who i am because someone influenced me. But after talking to my mom and realizing things about myself, i realize i've always been me. Except a shell of what i was always supposed to be, my mother says i used to resist authority when i was a kid.I used to hear voices and think they were God talking to me, i once saw a person at the door in the corner of my eye . . . when it vanished a second later.

Going back to feeling different, i've never gotten a long with most kids my age. I was always talking and conversing with adults with ease, but when it came to my generation--there was a distance, they never liked me, and all my life i've always wondered why. Finally i think i found the answer, i've heard the term Indigo children before but recently i heard it again and decided to research it. What i found was startling, children who were old souls that were called here for a greater purpose, a purpose in almost "saving the world." Children who resist authority and feel disconnected from others, children who have special gifts that enable them to perceive what will happen next, or understand when someone is going through and help them. Do you ever experience this? If so check this website to see if you're an Indigo. Indigo Children

I recently found out I'm an indigo, which suddenly makes perfect sense. All of my weird dreams and crazy ideas, the way in which i always had a hard time making friends--and number one, the fact that certain people i meet feel like old friends. Has that ever happened to you? I've had numerous times were i've felt connected to people, in the past few years its more refined. I will meet someone and instantly have this attraction, not for physical but mental stimulation. And i realize now that these are other Indigo children, because Indigo's associate with other Indigo's, and because of their gifts can probably sense others like them easily.

So that's a bit about these kids in a nutshell, I'm really into spiritual things and auras, and nature and Indigo's and the end times, astrology, everything is kind of intertwined. So i invite you now to join me in this adventure of learning about these cool things! You ready? See you later!

-Kat