Trying to stay positive

I need to remember that there are more people cheering on the sidelines, then the amount of people booing on the field. I'm trying to stay positive, using that as my crutch. My mantra whenever i keep thinking about my own dreams, or the people who think i will fail. You see, yesterday i got my first job--a job that i can really work hard at, and a job that could prove good for experience in the field of business. Unfortunately, its a difficult job based on the customer. Its not commission, because i get paid a base fee for every appointment, but in retrospect appointments are hard to come by when they are 45 minutes and in the persons home. And also when i have to make them with friends and family first.

I'm going to be working for Vector in case your interested, after sitting through the interview yesterday i thought it was really cool. They have an amazing company, and i'm glad to work for them. However, the thoughts of being told that everybody works for them, and that its not a good paying job--and plus with my dreams of failing, my confidence is starting to waiver. But alas, i remember the good friends on the sidelines, the ones saying i can do it.

So for now i say, I can do it. I can do it, I can do it.

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"The World is against me." Or Maybe I'm against myself?

He's on your mind all the time, you can't let him go. That one boy who makes you smile, you've liked him for awhile but now its time to let go. Have you ever liked somebody so much that it hurt? And then one day you woke up, and realized you must stop liking this person, and then you try your hardest to stop? I have, and its a constant battle to stop . . . but along this road i see signs that say, "this is why you like him!" Is that you?

Today this occurred in fact, one of my favorite pastimes is looking up my horoscope, sometimes the one on myspace is true, and other times they have reminders for me to live by. I also get these, and tarot cards sent to my email, well upon checking my email i got one about love--"Someone who agrees with you is obviously bright, but someone who challenges you might turn out be downright fascinating -- and infuriating, and hot. Start an argument with someone new and see what happens." Unfortunately for me, this is one of those reminders, and seeing this turns my brain around to think of the person i fell hardest for. Attempt at forgetting: Failure.

A quick thought entered my mind at this, why is the world so against me that it has to put obstacles in my path to stop me from forgetting? Then I realized something, it isn't the world at all . . . but myself, whose the one interpreting this email that way? Me, and whose the person who can't really stop thinking of him? Me. I need to realize that its not the world pitted against me, it didn't do anything, nature is unbiased and random, but I'm in control of what I do. And in order to shake my feelings, i need to realize and utilize that I'm in control of everything around me.

So next time you think the world is against you, stop and ask yourself, "Maybe I'm against myself?"

Obsession (for men) from Calvin Klein has some interesting fans.

It draws in Cats. Jaguars that is.


Scientists from Guatemala used the scent Obsession (for men) from Calvin Klein, to track jaguars by luring them in front of cameras. Interesting. Wonder what's so special about that scent? I want to smell it now.




The article:

http://news.yahoo.com/s/nm/20100610/od_nm/us_jaguars_calvinklein